The Struggle

…….up until a certain point. I got hustled out of the building, my blood sugar is low, and I’m in a really bad mood now. Boyfriend being too cheerful to try and address the balance. Not working :p

Incredibly I got up after only 5 hours’ sleep, this is a great achievement. In addition I deserve even more kudos because I was sleepy and hungover all day yesterday! 

On Saturday I cancelled yoga because I was enjoying hanging out with Stephen and watching Nurse Jackie with him all day before Ellie arrived. Not long after this we had a few drinks, Craig and Paul joined us, and we went to Rufus to continue. We played pool. We are really crap, Stephen is really good. 

Ellie got us some chicken tikka massala from Cookies, it was very tasty. Then we danced, drank, sat, chatted, and got told by a 20-year-old boy whose opening line was to announce that he had no empathy for anyone (that’s right, cos psychopathy is so cool and in just now, isn’t it?!) that I was lying about my age and that my driver’s licence was fake. Now, as flattering as that was, it was a tad annoying and I had ro practically prise it out of his fingers to get it back. He asked where I was from and whether I did drugs, and he concluded that clean living (haha) and NHS healthcare being better in Edinburgh was the explanation! haha.

Ellie and I had a good time. Danced to Nirvana, Limp Bizkit, Papa Roach, and other things. They played Funeral for a Friend on the indie floor. So much nostalgia! 

Sunday we all watched Alien, Aliens and Alien cubed, all day long - the special editions, one of which was over 2 hrs’ long. Domino’s for half-price and then that was Sunday.

Work today, part-time this week. Happy Monday!

“Coffee, a banana, and Vicodin ”, the breakfast of kings!” Dr O’Hara, Nurse Jackie - I love this quote because that is essentially my breakfast most days - substitute Vicodin with Prozac!

Just saw Prometheus with S. I loved it!
Today has been good. Housework then yoga before bed. The yoga was great, helped my back. I slept really well, and late =). Roasting a chicken, drinking red wine, listening to some of my favourite music and painting my nails. Good Friday night!

Q

Making plans with my Mum to go to Bolton soon to see my Great Uncle. Trainline for the win! or teh \/\/1|\|0Rz……..+1 scene point?!

Such a lot of good telly. I introduced S to Day of the Triffids which we started last night and finished tonight - it’s only two episodes but a total of 3 hours’ long. Dougray Scott is in it…..he is good.

Also started watching Skins from the beginning again, it’s been years. I only ever saw the first two series, and I loved them. I forgot how much. I really am a young thirtysomething-year-old. I would love to have the time to watch Shameless all over again, including the later series that I never watched. Reminds me of good times in Leith smoking a lot in my sunny living room with the two cats, Jeff forever climbing all over me and the keyboard =).

Fawlty Towers too, so damn funny. We’ve seen all of Game of Thrones and Luther now too. Luther is a BBC thing, very gritty drama, we love it. Finished already! Series two of both of these were short. Recently saw two Death Note films, never seen anything like them in my life. Fabulous. Recently tried Spooks, thought I liked it but it started boring me. Luther is much, much better.

Made fajitas tonight and all is well.

I did have some but it’s gone.

Perhaps the rest from work for three days combined with seeing Ellie on Sat for drinks, and Tenacious D on Tuesday courtesy of Stephanie! <3

REALLY SORE STOMACH! 

Is it something I ate? Or end of my monthly thing?

Took a while to get home compared to normal. I knew that my normal route is cut off for 7 weeks so I just carried on straight to see which way the Sat Nav would take me. It took me via Anniesland Cross which I expected, but I fucked up and ended up back on the road heading back, but used the Sat Nav to get through to Gt Western Rd! I was in the wrong lane about three times due to being brave or stupid (bus lanes - couldn’t remember where they all were), but I was lucky in getting back into the correct lanes. 

Back up when I got in the door as usual. Won’t go any further. Just to say it doesn’t really make me want to cook or do anything for someone else.

I got to sleep with the help of half a tab of diazepam and reading more! Almost slept in however. everything went well so far however, apart from an extra-long anxiety episode when i was getting ready because worried i would be late! But i even managed to have breakfast, shower, put on make-up, AND make lunch. Making lunch is something i cannot usually manage in the mornings. Not even the night before, this being due to links to high school memories. Ugh.

Can’t sleep =(

I feel good.

But for how many minutes?!

Today I got dizzy, felt sick, had to go to bed and got a headache. Why so light-headed? I started taking fluoxetine on every other day for days ago, perhaps that’s why. Or it could be a mini come-down from the diazepam I took last night! Which made me sleep like the dead incidentally, it was brilliant! I’m also on my period and it’s sore. Woe is me indeed!